On what happens to be one of the most stressful days of my life, I refuse to give up. The old Kate would have thrown in the towel long ago. Not this Kate. I’ve surrounded myself with good people, I have changed my perception, I’m a positive person, and hopefully with time, this too shall pass. All good things don’t always have to come to an end… Well, “it” can try to win, but it won’t succeed. I have too much positivity running through my veins. “It” doesn’t stand a chance!
I have been blessed with such an amazing little boy who continues to inspire me on a daily basis. God has been extremely kind to me. I just hope he continues to be so. Now that I know what life IS. What life is all about. I know true love. I know the bond between mother and child. I understand the unconditional love from my parents (who have had several chances to turn their backs on me, yet never even gave it a thought). I am grateful for all that I have and all that I have become. My parents played a HUGE part in all of this. I am forever grateful and love you both so very much!!
I am sad that there are people out in the world with a completely misguided perception of me, but there’s nothing I can do about that. I am who I am, and my purpose on this earth was not at any point in time to please others. So, like my header says, if you can’t be kind, be quiet. The hate mail needs to stop. You look and sound like a child throwing a temper tantrum. And remember… when you’re pointing your finger at someone (blaming them for something) there are 3 fingers pointing back at you. Yes, I confess that when my son was an infant I stole baby formula from the local grocery store so I could feed MY newborn because his father smoked away our paychecks in a crack pipe. Go ahead… try to throw false accusations at me. I’ll just hit you with the truth. Fraud? I don’t know where you pulled that one from, but I’m not the one who purposely wrecked my vehicle because I couldn’t afford the payments. I did not cheat on my husband, yet he can’t say the same. And I have not once had my child removed from my home because social services deemed me unfit to parent. And, the icing on the cake? I don’t have a mug shot. Maybe you can both add them to your wedding album? Am I proud of the bad decisions I once made so many years ago?? Absolutely NOT. I’m ashamed of my actions, and I have sincerely apologized for them (11 years ago) while you’re still placing blame… P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C. I’m ashamed at myself for staying with you as long as I did when I knew I didn’t love you. I’m ashamed that I was too weak to stand on my own. But, I love you because you gave me Ryan. It’s as simple as that. If you don’t want your dirty laundry aired, I suggest you stop the stalking and hate mail.
I hope I live to see the day where there is an end to war. Where we mind our own business and not kill innocent people just to prove we can. I hope I live to see the day where the word racism and all that it means is erased from the dictionary as well as everyday life and vocabulary. We all bleed red!! I hope I live long enough to see this Peace movement blanket the world; when “Love thy neighbor” comes back in style. It’s only a matter of time, I know. But time is one of those things we can’t get ever get back. The more hate we put out, the more time we are wasting. So to those of you who follow me, I love you all. For your kind words, and your constant support and helpful suggestions. I love that you inspire me to be better today than I was yesterday.
To my family, both near and “far” I love you all. The lessons I have learned from you are irreplaceable and of great value to me. It was those very lessons that put me on the path I’m currently walking. So, thank you. To my enemies, I wish for you a peaceful heart. Peace is such a beautiful thing. Why would you want anything less?
To the one man I have ever truly loved, please know that I will love you until my last breath on this earth, and I’ll continue to love you and look over you until we are joined together again. I had a beautiful vacation. It took me 35 years, but I now finally know the difference between sex and making love. You have made such a significant impact on my life. The thought of being without you is enough to bring me to my knees. I will love you ALWAYS. Thank you for showing me true love; for taking the time to understand me and all of my “craziness.” Thank you for embracing it and educating yourself, and understanding that I’m not in fact crazy; I’m quite normal. It was the people I was surrounded by making me crazy. They are gone and you have taken their place, and I’ve never been happier than I am in this very moment.
To the strangers I’ve yet to meet, I already know you are good people because like attracts like. I look forward to the day we do “meet.” I’m pretty sure you will be just as kind as everyone else I’ve met here on WordPress.
And to those of you promoting my work, helping me establish a name for myself, I am sincerely grateful. Now, if I could just get this book finished!! And WordPress!! Thank you Daily Post for your never ending prompts which got me back in the saddle again. It is because of you that I now spend my days writing. Yes, you are one big vat of butt glue and inspiration. My life has changed in so many ways in the short time I’ve been a member.
Tonight, I am grateful for everyone. Those who love me, those who hate me and those yet to even know me. I am grateful for each and every one of you. Thank you all for helping me fulfill a lifelong dream.
And since I know you’re following my blog Tom, Bill and I went away for our one year anniversary. It had nothing to do with his son. Ryan got his days mixed up and feels like he lied to you. So, I’m clarifying for Ryan. Personally, it’s none of your business when or why Bill and I go away. Why are you so concerned/obsessed with MY life We’re divorced. I think it’s about time you moved along and got on with your “new family” and left me and mine alone. Again, interrogating your 11 year old will get you no where when it comes to court. And after you sent that email telling me you were done with Ryan and that he was no longer welcome at your house because he wasn’t comfortable opening up to you, I don’t think I’ll have a problem getting sole custody. Oh, but then you flip flop and say he’s welcome anytime… Which one is it? I’d like to be accurate when I file the petition.
To the rest of you, I wish you peace, love and happiness, ALWAYS.
~Kate…an extremely grateful, appreciative, peaceful Kate.