My boyfriend left for work a few hours ago, and I already miss him. We had such a great time this past weekend!! I think America and every other country out there needs to offer employees more vacation time; time just like this, so that we can actually have a chance at living life, and not be forced to wait until retirement to do all the things we’ve always wanted to. The joke in our home is that I’m going to write a best-seller so that he can retire early. My son’s even in on it! Although, I’m not looking at it as a joke any longer. I’ll do my B.A.D. post and the daily prompt, but I’ve got to get writing. Obviously the subject matter of the book itself is motivational, but this adds to the motivation. Having him home all the time, so that we can plan mini vacations. And I don’t even care that he just had to tell everyone on the Fenway Park tour (home of the Boston Red Sox) that his girlfriend was a NY Yankees fan. To see him smiling and laughing literally warmed my heart. I want to see more of it!! There has been much too much sadness in this mans life. If I were him, I don’t know that I could even force a smile. With all that he’s been through, it amazes me that he can. And that I can be witness to it.
There was lots of talk of marriage on this trip. We’ve agreed that we aren’t going to rush into anything, but that we’ve definitely stopped looking for “the one” because we both know that we’ve found them. As far as children go… I perfected it the first time around with my son. I’m not interested in having any more children. I was blessed with the experience of motherhood. I got to feel him grow inside me and had a very strenuous labor (thanks for that buddy) ultimately leading to an emergency C-section. I don’t want to start all over. Ryan is turning out to be a fine young man (advancing in karate next month, so I’m EXTREMELY proud). And as I’m sure I’ve mentioned, his father has more kids, so Ryan will have brothers when he gets older. He won’t be an only child. As for me? I’m done. I’m selfish. I want to keep Ryan all to myself, watch him and guide him, and be proud of him. I don’t want to have to share that love with another child. Plus, as Ryan gets older, he’s become much more independent. There’s now a very good chance that I will be having surgery this week. I don’t need my mom to come over and “help” as I have Ryan here. Not only can he take care of himself, but he can help me too if and when I need it. So, I’ll take all that I have been blessed with and won’t ask for any more. Other than my book be a success. Because allowing Bill to retire early would give us a chance to do so much! So, I’m going to end this “rant” now. And because I was conscious enough to remember Bill leaving for work, I also remember the sweet kisses he left on my forehead and the way he rubbed my face before he left. I think I’ll be bringing him a morning coffee today. THEN I’ll get writing. 😀
I wish you all a day of Peace, Love and Happiness, as THIS is what life is truly about.