Today I have no choice but to say goodbye to my son as I send him off to public school. I’ve already gotten so much info, including a Christian school with a tuition I can afford for next year, should this year resemble last year AT ALL. I’d love to post pics on here, but there are just some people who aren’t deserving of seeing them. Rest assured, I took about a thousand. Oh! And did I forget to mention that Ryan LOVES his new doctor? I think this is going to work out after all. He’s a good 45 minutes away, but wants to see Ryan twice a month instead of weekly AND is allowing Ryan to join his Tuesday group where he can meet other kids suffering from anxiety. He also said that Ryan isn’t on the spectrum at all!! So for anyone to say he has Aspurger’s syndrome needs to get themselves checked. The ONLY thing Ryan suffers from is PTSD and abandonment issues, and I have been strongly encouraged to keep the relationship he has with his father as is until the court makes its final decision. Ryan wants nothing to do with him. And he told the doctor why. I filed August 6th, and they’re running 8 to 10 weeks behind, so… Wish me luck. I’m also going to go ahead and increase the child support as his father is fully aware that it should have gone up as soon as he went back to work, yet made NO attempt to help me buy Ryan’s school supplies, because once again, he chose to take care of his girlfriends offspring over his own son. And you seriously have to wonder why my son has issues?
Anyway… maybe I’ll go file the petition today. Do something useful with my day. Get the 17% that Ryan deserves. For now, I have to go put him on the bus, but to see him excited makes me feel awesome. I think Bill and I did a great job over the summer, boosting his self esteem. He’s got this. Us against the world kiddo!! I love you more than you’ll ever know. I HATE sending you back to that place, but I hope you’ll have a better year. No, I KNOW you’ll have a better year. I hope you have a great day and I’ll be sitting here anxiously waiting for you to return to tell me all about it!!! Love you Ryan August!!