Who’da thought…?

I have a friend from when I was 9-10 years old.  Over the years we lost contact, and kind of went our separate ways, but we’ve managed to reconnect.  And the positives?  He’s intellectual.  He’s a philosopher, and a man of many words.  He’s taking an art class with me, (YAY!!!) and we’re rekindling an old friendship.  So, who would have thought something as “simple” as a rekindled friendship could be the reason behind me getting out of this funk?  I can finally say I’m happy again.  So, here’s to the newest chapter of my life.  Extremely grateful for friendships; old and new.  Appreciation and love, in the way I need it.  Feeling so very blessed right now.

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~Kate…one extremely thankful, grateful, blessed, Kate.

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Fan-Freaking-tastic Day

I have not one single complaint!  I spent 5 hours WITH Ryan, bonding with a stray dog.  The animal control officer wasn’t on duty today and we aren’t allowed to have pets, so I was freaking out, as to what I was going to do with this poor, under weight dog that had open wounds all over its body.  Being infested with fleas, I couldn’t bring it into out apartment.  So, I called the police back, and they were able to contact the animal control officer, and now I know the dog is at the vet, being cared for properly.

Today marks an extremely special day for us.  One of my very best friends confided a secret, and I’m not at liberty to share it, as it is her news to share.  If you’re reading this, please know that I will ALWAYS be right here.  Wait until you see what I did for you already!!  I told you… you are going to be so sick of me in the very near future.  But I’ll love you anyway,

Great day, followed by a great night because my boyfriend is in a loveable mood.  I LOVE when life is good.  Despite all the negativity that is lingering around us, we refuse to absorb it and stay positive.  Totally loving life right now, and I hope you are all doing the same.

Good night fellow bloggers!  Wishing you ALL nothing but the best!! From my heart to yours…

~Kate…one extremely satisfied, grateful, and humbled Kate.

Just a simple change in perception was all it took.

It’s absolutely amazing how changing your perception can effect your mood so much.  It’s not that I was in a bad mood, but rather a sour mood.  Not, unhappy, but not my normally happy self.  It took me a while, but I changed my perception and look at that… life is good.  Life is GREAT!  I’ve got no complaints, and can go to bed tonight grateful, and happy in my king sized bed and all my pillows.  Ryan is fast asleep, getting ready to get back into school mode (5:30am wake up calls) and I’m right behind him.  See?  The sun went down!  I’m ready to write!!  But, I’ve got to shut it all down for the night and make sense of the notes I wrote today and try to turn it into a post for tomorrow.  Thank you to all of you who kept on my butt and encouraged me.  Your kindness doesn’t go un-noticed.  I appreciate it very much.  For now, I’ve got a new book to read and I’m going to go lay in bed and read until my eyes slam shut.  Unless Bill has other plans (sorry for the TMI dad).  Hope you all have a great night and weekend to follow.

~Kate…one extremely grateful, Kate.

Okay… I lied…

Well, not entirely.  I gave up on focusing on my followers.  I didn’t start a blog to gain a following.  I started a blog to write.  Then I reached 50 followers.  I was so flipping excited! When it hit 100?  I had to be peeled off the ceiling.  Then I decided to stop focusing on that.  I love each and every one of you, but I was getting wrapped up in my followers and losing sight on what I originally started out to do, which was write.  Sometimes I have bad days and need to vent, but more often than not I’m trying to pick out the good in all my days.  I vowed to not focus on the ever increasing number of followers and just kept writing.  Well, today (last night, but I opened it today) WordPress sent me a message saying it was my best day for likes.  So, my curiosity was piqued.  I did it.  I hit the stats button, only to see that I am 4 followers away from 200.  I do hope that this number one day reaches 20,000, but I am satisfied with my 196 (plus 2 email followers and if my FATHER would create a link to follow me by email that’d put me even closer).  You are all amazing, and extremely inspiring.  I look forward to reading your posts each morning, and the conversations that will soon transpire as I respond.  You are all so kind and supportive.  And POSITIVE!!!  I don’t want any negativity on here whatsoever!!  I love to be happy.  I love the way it makes me feel, and the fact that laughter is not only the best medicine, BUT, it’s so very contagious, motivates me even more.  Why, when we have the option to choose happiness, do so many of us pick anger and misery?  It’s such a bad feeling.  I believed for the longest time that I was alone in my thinking.  Then I met all of you.  This is my home.  This is where I belong.  You all have no idea what your words of inspiration do for me.  One day, I will go down the list (better make it soon before my number of followers increases) and thank you all personally for the part you play in my happiness. 

So, I caved.  I gave into my ego and looked at my stats.  And I’m so glad I did.  This is a sincere thanks to all of you.  All of you who keep me writing, who inspire me to keep being positive when I’m surrounded by negativity.  All of you who continue to be right here for me and comment on my blogs.  If I can help just one person achieve happiness, I will be grateful.

I hope you all have a great day!  I know I’m going to.  Happy blogging, and keep the positivity coming!!

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~Kate…one grateful, positively optimistic, Kate.

Only 1 post today…

…as I have LOTS to do.  I just wanted to take a moment to thank you all.  When I first started blogging, it was to grow an audience for the things I like to write about.  I would get so excited every time someone new liked my page.  I would watch the numbers grow, and call my parents just to say “I’m doing it!”.  This is no longer the case.  I write because it’s what I like to do.  I write because it’s therapeutic.  My most personal posts are in a notebook that no one has access to.  I’d love to post them here, but as you’re all well aware by now, I’ve got trolls following me and my personal life is none of their business.  I’m not going to give them anything to talk about.  So I keep it all light-hearted and positive.  Sure they still send me nasty hate mail, but it makes me smile.  I’m obviously on their minds.  I’m flattered, really.  But you’re still not getting anything personal about me.  So, continue to troll, hack into my boyfriends computer (because you aren’t getting into mine) and live a miserable life.  I just hope I can witness the day when you all look in the mirror and realize its not me you hate, but yourselves.  Your bad choices, your unhappy lives.  None of that is MY fault.  But unless or until you evolve, you’re going to continue looking like idiots casting blame instead of taking accountability.

 

So, to all of my REAL followers…  If I don’t get another follower for the rest of my time on WP, that’s totally fine by me.  This isn’t a popularity contest, and I like what I write.  Shouldn’t that be all that matters?  However, those of you who have taken the time to private message me; those of you leaving nothing but kind words and inspiring feedback; those of you who make me feel good…  I value each and every one of you.  I’m so grateful our paths have crossed.  It has taken me a long time to get where I am (evolutionary speaking) and you help keep me here.  That doesn’t go un-noticed by me.  I promise you that.  So, just a special thanks to all of you who continue to support me, through hard times as well as happy.  Through difficult prompts and those days when I feel my writing just isn’t good enough.  Thank you all so very much.  I’ve given some serious thought to starting an entirely new, anonymous account, where I can bare it all without any repercussions, but that’s miles away.  I’m not 100% convinced I won’t be found, as my ex has gone as low as to use a google image locator to find this blog.  So, when I say anonymous, I mean TOTALLY anonymous.  It sucks that I still have to live my life knowing these creatures are following my every post, BUT, this too shall pass.  If it makes them feel better to leave me nasty messages, hey… I’m still the good one, allowing them to get it off their chest, right?  Little do they know the comments go right into the trash and are no longer even read. I just don’t have the time to spend on such negativity. 

So, you all keep being who you are.  You’re a wonderful bunch I wish I had met years ago!  And they can continue to live their pathetic, miserable lives, hating, but thinking about me nonetheless.  If I am on their mind I have a certain power over them.  I like that.  Thank you all!!  I hope you all have a great day!!  Now, I’ve got to get to baking, and ready myself for tomorrows karate BBQ.  Actually looking forward to hearing my son belly laugh and have fun with his friends.

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~Kate…a person people LOVE to HATE, Kate.

 

I have nominated ALL of my followers for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award!!

I’ve got to say, I am so sad that I didn’t find WordPress before now.  I have only met kind-hearted souls who inspire me on a daily basis.  I can’t thank you enough Anna for the nomination.  It feels good to know that my words have an effect on at least one person.  I’m so grateful our paths have crossed!!

The Rules:

1.Thank and link to the amazing person who nominated you.
2.List the rules and display the award.
3.Share seven facts about yourself.
4.Nominate 15 other amazing blogs and comment on their posts to let them know they have been nominated.
5.Proudly display the award logo on your blog and follow the blogger who nominated you

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1.  I have severe anxiety disorders as well as depression.  I have taken myself all the meds (except Xanax for severe attacks) and am working to raise awareness to such illnesses, as I’m just tired of being referred to as “crazy.”

2.  I wear my heart on my sleeve.  If you need help, know that I’ll be there.  I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been burned by doing so, but I can’t let one bad apple spoil the whole bunch.

3.  I am VERY HAPPILY divorced.  My ex husband is toxic and I include the severance of our communication in my nightly prayers.

4.  I do believe I’m addicted to pens and notebooks.  Every shopping trip I make, I HAVE to go right to the stationary section to see what’s new.

5.  I believe I was born to be a writer.  I think it’s in my DNA.  If I’m not writing (or reading and taking notes) my anxiety level is through the roof!  LOVE to write!

6.  It took me 35 years to find it, but I did it.  I have found true, drama free, honest to God, love.  His return from work everyday is also in my nighty prayers, as jaded ex’s have tried to ruin our relationship.  Um… FAIL!!!!  We’re together; we’re solid, and most importantly, we’re happy.  I have never laughed so much with another man than I do with him.  He inspires me to be a better person.

7.  I’ve saved the BEST for last… I’m a mom.  I have single handedly raised my son for 11 years.  He is a true gentleman, polite, respectful and the best thing that ever could have happened to me.  When I was in my most darkest days,  hearing that while he was temporarily in his “father’s” care until I could recover from an allergic reaction to a prescribed medication, my son was being neglected, I ripped a hole in the wall of solitude I had built to surround myself, and fought the fight it took to get him back home where he belongs.  The doctors told me long ago that I would never have children.  He is my miracle baby.  The bond that we have is unbreakable, and I didn’t know until the day he was born that you could love another human being that much. I only have one child, and I tell him all the time, I only have one because I perfected it the first time.  He is my heartbeat. ❤

And like Anna said… now is the hard part.  There is no way I can choose just 15.  So, please know that if you are following me and reading this, I am nominating you.  ALL of you!!  As each and every one of you inspire me on a daily basis.  It’s so unfair to put a limit on the number of people you can nominate.  You ALL deserve it.

I would like to re-nominate Anna, but I don’t think that’s acceptable.  She is quite inspiring though and I would highly recommend checking her out.  Not only is she inspiring, she manages to remain positive even in the worst situations.  Very admirable. 

Perhaps I have broken the rules, and by doing so, don’t deserve to display the award.  If that’s the case, I’ll remove it.  However, I cannot just randomly pick 15 people when so many more have played such a significant role in where I sit today.  Thank you Anna, so very much!  I appreciate the award and your kind words about my blog.  I DO try to stay positive, no matter what the day brings.  It’s better to be happy and find the good in a situation than it is to be all miserable and grumpy all the time.

I hope each and every one of my followers will proudly display this on their blogs, as it is very much deserved.

Peace, love and happiness…Always!

~Kate 

Has to be HAPPY!!!!

Maybe it’s my new way of thinking, or my new found respect for each precious moment of life.  Maybe it’s because I’ve learned so much over the 2 years passed, or the books that have educated me to value life and respect it in a way I didn’t know I was supposed to.  Regardless, I cannot sign off for the night on a negative note.  No, mental illness is not a negative note, but the name calling and the stereotyping is.  I want to put that to rest.  My mental illness (which, may I remind you, is depression and anxiety) DOES NOT define me.  I am a friend.  I listen; I offer advice; I help those who need it and do good deeds.  I counted 3 today, even though today was a nightmare between doctors visits and another round of no answers.  But, I’ve kind of given up counting.  I’ve just burned it into my brain.  Do good.  So, now it’s just a natural reaction.  A reaction this world needs so much more of.  So, depending on where you live in this world, if you haven’t done a good deed today, you may still have time.  I would strongly recommend doing so.  It’s good for the soul, it sets a great example to those looking up to you, it makes others feel better, and it makes YOU a better person.

I have read so many posts today… and I’ve tried to comment on all of them.  You are all such great people.  I wish some of you lived closer, as I would love to have a coffee date and just talk.  Sitting behind a computer screen takes even just a little emotion out of the messages I try to convey.  I’m just grateful for having been given the opportunity to read all of your work, and rants, your advice, and your problems.  It makes me feel like I’ve finally found a place where I belong.  I wish each of you would send me you home addresses so I can add you to my Christmas card list!  You’re so much more than people I follow or people who follow me.  You ALL inspire me and I’m so very grateful for each and every one of you. 

I hope you all have a great evening, and I look forward to catching up with you again first thing tomorrow.

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~Kate…counting her blogger blessings, Kate.