So… things didn’t go quite as planned…

Big deal.  I’ve got my son.  We’re having a mental health day, and already laughing our asses off.  That’s good enough for me. 

Jonathan Ojanpera, we received your painting today and it is absolutely beautiful!!!  I didn’t realize you were a writer as well.  Thank you for a copy of your book.  I look forward to reading it.

To the rest of the world… I’m signing out and spending the day with MY not so little man.  Hope you all have as much fun as we’re going to.

~Kate…one blessed and grateful, Kate.

Pursuit of happiness? Check.

Went to court today, and watched my ex husband, (the sperm donor who gave me my child) try to squirm his way out of paying the child support due to my son.  What part of “If you make them, you have to take care of them.” is so hard to understand?  I’m sure his grand parents and parents would be really proud of him.  Well, either way, we (my son and I won).  The child support was raised by $30 a week, and the private investigator has been hired to prove that when he’s “laid off” he’s actually working under the table.  And…since the private investigator is a close friend, it’s absolutely free of charge!  Here’s your shovel.  You just keep on digging.

All is well in our world, and I like it this way.

Peace, Love and Happiness, Always,

~Kate… one, just got a nice healthy raise, Kate.

And what a date it was…

Right before my very own eyes, this boy is maturing and he’s growing into one fine young man.  Sure we had our fair share of laughing fits, deep conversations and actually managed to watch 2 movies, BUT, these are all mine.  No one will know of the things we said, or what caused the laughter.  We were 2 individuals, just being in the moment and loving ever second of it.  THIS is what life is all about.  Finding peace in a stressful situation.  Spending quality time with the ones you love so deeply.  Laughing, crying, talking, and spending my last dime on a freezing cold ice cream cone.  I love our dates, and as he gets older, they get more spaced apart, but I’ll grab them when I can.  The night still isn’t over and I already can’t wait for our next date.

Peace, Love and Happiness, Always,

~Kate…one truly blessed, and genuinely happy, Kate.

Date Night… with the boy who makes my heartbeat <3

Today happens to be one (if not the one) of the most favorite times of the year.  I’m taking my son to the movies and having a mom and son date night.  It is on these nights that he opens up and talks and tells me what’s on his mind.  We laugh, we cry, we watch a good movie and basically have a really good night.  As he gets older, these days aren’t as important to him (or maybe they are equally as important to him; he just hides it).  But nights like tonight are ones that I truly treasure and anticipate.  I come home and write about them in his journal; a book I started once I found out I was pregnant for him.  I want him to be able to look back on his childhood and have a positive written memory he can think back and reflect on.  He doesn’t have nearly enough of those.  I’m so happy that I’m the one privileged to give them to him.

Today didn’t start off so good… I woke up and told him it was time to get ready for karate, and put up a fuss.  Friday and Saturday are the only days he’s allowed to play video games and I just paid his monthly karate fee.  He said he didn’t feel like going, (he’d rather stay home and play video games)and maybe I over reacted a bit, but, once he was dressed and ready to go, I remembered that there were 3 days written on the board at the do-jo that stated which days there would be no classes held.  Today was one of them.  Whoops.  So, I ended up feeling like an ass, and gave him one of his birthday presents (his birthday isn’t until the end of October) to make up for it.

He LOVED it, and has spent the entire day playing with it, instead of video games, knowing full well he can’t play the game tomorrow.  And he’s smiling, so I’m smiling.  He’s already asking if it’s time to go to the movies yet, so I KNOW our night is going to be the complete opposite of our morning, and this is one thing I will forever be grateful for.  Memories…  You can take every material object away from me, you can call me every name in the book, you can think whatever it is you think of me, but I’M the one making the memories.  You’ll never get those.

Peace, Love and happiness, Always,

~Kate…one extremely blessed and grateful, memory making, Kate!

A day devoted to baking…

Yup.  Eggplant Parm with ziti, meatballs and sausage.  Then another round of banana walnut muffins.  I can’t wait to smell this apartment in about an hour from now.  So, maybe I’ll be on later, maybe not.  But today, I’m spending in the kitchen.  Ryan LOVES Bill’s meatballs (and everyone who’s tried them agrees…they are the BEST).  So, I’ve taken some out of the freezer and plan on having one kick ass dinner for the man who forever keeps a smile on my face and in my heart.  Some day Bill…  Someday we will be far away from the losers, the dead-beats, the pond scum, the stalkers.  Someday we are going to be free from them all.  Until then, your continuous support (and reminders…heh-hem…LOSERS) means the world to me.

As for the rest of you, I hope you have a great day!!  Don’t look around at all that you don’t have.  Look around and see (maybe for the first time) all that you DO have, and appreciate it.  Be grateful for everything!!  The more grateful you are, the more you will receive. 

PLH4

~Kate…one extremely grateful, Kate

The only word that comes to mind is…

Perfect.  Absolutely PERFECT.  Today, at 11:05am I turned 36 years old.  I had little to no expectations, after years of being let down.  For reasons I’m sure you’re all aware of by now (trolling ex’s stalking my blog) I will not put into detail what my day consisted of, but I can say this…  If I were to sit down and plan the perfect birthday, it would have unfolded exactly as today did.  Today was by far, thee best birthday I have had in all of my now 36 years.  A very sincere thanks to the man in my life who made it all happen; to the friends who began texting me at 4am; to my mother for sharing it with me and to the friends who showed up at 8:30pm unannounced with gifts that I will forever treasure.  I will go to sleep tonight with an extremely happy heart and soul and one heck of a grateful mindset.  Ahhhh  what a day.  The best to date.  And it just keeps getting better.  I don’t know what I did to deserve this.  This much happiness, pure love and the abundance of things I am grateful for, but I am loving every second of it.  Sorry so short, but I’ve got to be up at 5:30 to get my not so little man off to school.  I’ll be back tomorrow.  Happy blogging, happy stalking, happy writing and reading.

~Kate…one extremely appreciative, Kate.

Is it TMI to say that the real birthday kicked off after the lights went out?  God how I love this man…

And so it goes….

The never ending story of my life.  Doctor’s with no answers, or doctor’s with all the answers (been there, done that, doesn’t work.)  But I’ll play the game and see it through to the end, just so he, too can be satisfied.  As for me?  I quit.  I’m done looking for answers.  I feel fine, and my health is fine, my heart is fine.  I’m quite content sitting back and living my life the way I want to, letting all the professionals try to figure out all the blood work, the shoulder injuries, etc. 

Life is good.  Why make it suck by dwelling on stuff I have no power over?  Um… absolutely no point at all.  So, I’m going to go spend the night with my boys and just be.  Hope you all had a great day.

~Kate…one perfectly content, Kate.