Disappointment

Disappointment, it’s true

Is such a waste.

Of time and energy

But mostly of space.

 

The space in your head

That positivity should reside

But disappointment takes over

And happily hides

 

In each corner and crevice

In every empty cell it can find

Being displayed on your face

And consuming your mind

 

You should be happy and

Having a great day

But disappointment has robbed you

And it’s here to stay

 

No one reads your writing

No one seems to care

They’re all too busy

And that’s about fair

 

We all have our own lives

We all have to contend

But disappointment has hold

I cannot pretend

 

My feelings are hurt

My ego is bruised

We’re only 5 days away

I feel like I’m being used

 

A place to stay

A roof over your head

Food in your belly

And a nice warm bed.

 

I pour my heart out through verse

After verse, and this is your choice

To ignore all my messages

And hear only my voice.

 

It’s too much to read

Maybe I’m too complex

For a mind such as yours

Maybe I’ll be then next

 

To abandon this ship

That we set sail long ago

I don’t know what tomorrow holds

Or today, I just don’t know

 

What I do know is this

My home is in writing

Where you find solace

In constantly fighting

 

The nature of life and how things

Should just be

We should talk more

But this you don’t see

 

You’re too busy trying

To prove that you’re right

You never back down

It’s just in you to fight

 

Well, I cannot fight

It’s not who I am

I want peace in my home

When my pen is in hand

 

But now I’m a mess

Disappointed the most

In your reaction to me

And the problems I host

 

A mere minute or two

Is all that I wanted

But you insisted on snapping

So now I am haunted

 

By our words as we parted

On what should have been nice

Was destroyed by your ego

And it’s desire to be right

 

So have a good day

Where ever you are

Know that I’m miserable

And feeling quite far

 

Away from the person I believed

Was my friend

This is too much

Perhaps maybe the end

 

Of a closeness I thought

That would never exist

Until I found you

And was met with pure bliss

 

Your mood changes more than

The colors of the sky

Catching you happy

This I cannot deny

 

Is an impossible feat

One caught on a whim

I’m too weighted down

To keep climbing this limb

 

One day it will snap

Reality will set in

I’m noting more than

A thorn in your skin.

 

I can see this much

And you know it’s true

What’s the point in denying

The obvious clue

 

The late night text

The disinterest in bed

Is it all over reaction

And just in my head?

 

I think it’s much deeper

Than you may believe

But your mouth says something

Your eyes deceive

 

I’ve been down this road

Many times through the years

I’ve had my heart-broken

And possessed only my tears

 

This road has been closed

I won’t travel it again, ever

I’ve thrown out the map

And all ties I did sever

 

If this is the road you choose to take

Please be safe and enjoy your journey

Don’t say you weren’t warned well in advance

It was you who refused to hear me.

If you can't be kind, be quiet. : ) Have a good day!!

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