Pursuit of happiness? Check.

Went to court today, and watched my ex husband, (the sperm donor who gave me my child) try to squirm his way out of paying the child support due to my son.  What part of “If you make them, you have to take care of them.” is so hard to understand?  I’m sure his grand parents and parents would be really proud of him.  Well, either way, we (my son and I won).  The child support was raised by $30 a week, and the private investigator has been hired to prove that when he’s “laid off” he’s actually working under the table.  And…since the private investigator is a close friend, it’s absolutely free of charge!  Here’s your shovel.  You just keep on digging.

All is well in our world, and I like it this way.

Peace, Love and Happiness, Always,

~Kate… one, just got a nice healthy raise, Kate.

Ahhhh… relief. FINALLY!!

So after years of a creepy, stalking, computer hacking ex; $X to get him out of my computer, the hate mail has finally stopped.  Maybe he took my words of advice and did something more productive with his time?  I sure hope so.  But I’ve got to say, before signing off for the night, it feels AWESOME to be completely rid of the jerk, and his “demands.”  Now, my ex husband on the other hand, has someone stalking/trolling my blog, so the personal info will remain just that, because he doesn’t deserve to know what’s going on in our lives.  So, unless or until I am completely rid of him too, my personal blogs are posted elsewhere.  Have fun finding them!  🙂  What a sense of relief  I have right now.  Words cannot express how good I feel.  One down, one to go.  I’m flattered that they followed my blog, as it means I obviously still mean something to them.  I’m not sorry to say I can’t say the same.  There’s a reason you are an ex.  And when people start to know who you truly are, I hope to be a fly on the wall. But anyway… It was so nice to see the spam folder empty, and the negativity gone.  I got him out of my life, then my computer, gone for GOOD!!  His childish attempts to destroy my current relationship are laughed at when we attend family gatherings, and his pitiful existence is something we’re all grateful we aren’t.  I am fully capable of taking care of myself and my son.  At 47 he’s still living at home with his parents.  That just screams productive member of society all over it!  (He said I’d never be a productive member of society, and that would forever live off of my parents.  Look at that.  I’m on my own and he’s accusing ME of the things he is guilty of!  Idiot) Well, he’s gone and I couldn’t be happier. 

Off to bed to wrap myself up like a pretzel in the arms of the man I truly love.  Hope you all have a great night!!

~Kate…one very relieved Kate.

A positive note…

I have spent the majority of my day obtaining as much info as I possibly could on this evil group, determined to attack the US.  In doing so, I have made them stronger.  I refuse to put any more thought into the “what if’s” and end my night on a positive note.  So, with that said…

We spent the day as a family.  We got all of Ryan’s school supply shopping done and are picking up his schedule Tuesday, and hopefully meeting with his counselor to get a few adjustments made.  Bill cooked us a delicious dinner of lasagna with home-made sauce, meatballs and fresh Italian bread.  My oh my…this man can cook!!  Ryan was teary eyed as he went to sleep tonight, but he says they were happy tears, and that he’s so glad it’s the 3 of us against the world (our motto since he was born has been “It’s me and you against the world, kiddo.”).  I think the time he spent with Bill did something to him.  He’s more confident when he speaks, and I only have to ask him ONE time to do something!!  He’s FINALLY listening to me!!  Bill and Ryan both say they had a great time, and if Bill said or did something to upset Ryan, I know he’d tell me.  So they obviously had a heart to heart, and Ryan absorbed every word.

Tonight, I am so grateful that there is no fighting in our house.  No yelling, no scolding, no abuse to “toughen Ryan up,” no animosity, no hidden anger, no negativity.  I am grateful for all that I have, and all that I’ll be receiving in the very near future.  I am grateful for the simple things and I am grateful for the amount of love that fills this house.  I’m not ashamed to say that we are one positive family, hoping to spread this contagious feeling of a natural high to those closest to us in the hopes that they too pass it along.  I am grateful for old and new friends.  I am grateful for the life I have been given and the blessings each new day brings.

I could go on and on, with all that I have to be grateful for, but the love of my life is waiting for me to finish up so that we can fall asleep wrapped up in each others arms.  So, I hope you can all stop, even if for only a brief moment and think of all that YOU have to be grateful for.

Good night fellow bloggers.

Peace, love and happiness, Always!

~Kate…one extremely grateful, extremely blessed, Kate.

And so it goes…

I’m puzzled by the countless times I thought that the world would stop spinning.  Whether it was a bad break up, a fight with a girlfriend, bad news about my son… what ever it happened to be.  However, not at any point in time, during any of these situations did the world stop spinning.  Life goes on.  It doesn’t stop to let us take a break, to recharge or to catch up.  It just keeps going.  Sometimes like a small boat going along with the tide, and other times like a freight train.  But it always spins.  Yes, the world always spins and I always win.  I don’t say this to sound cocky or to try to convince you that I am better than anyone.  I always win because that’s just the way I see things.  Even if I lose, I still come out a winner.  This past couple of days for example:  I lost who I thought was a really good friend.  Turns out she’s a sociopath (and I don’t mean this in a light hearted way, or a way to make fun).  She was court ordered to be in therapy and she’s not.  Her whole life has turned upside down, and it turns out it’s all my fault.  Yup, I made her make all of these stupid mistakes, and I made her to continue to make all of these stupid mistakes, and when she gets caught, because I tell the truth, EVERYTHING is my fault.  So, I lost what I thought was a good friend but gained an honest, open friend in her place.  I refuse to see the negative, even in the worst of situations.  Why?  Why dwell on the bad when there is so much good right in front of our faces?  It’s taken me quite a long time to get where I am, as far as my thinking, but I’ve made it.  I’ve changed my perception.  Imagine life as a menu.  You’ve got a whole list of moods you can be in today.  Well, today and everyday, I choose happiness.  I choose to be happy.

 

Good night fellow bloggers!  Hope you have a happy tomorrow.

Peace, love and happiness, Always,

~Kate

Best thing I’ve heard in a LONG time

Ryan had his weekly mental health visit today, and for some reason (he claims he felt safer) he asked that I sit in with them.  Once we established that there were no issues he wanted to discuss in regards to me, his social worker began asking him questions.  Her first question was “School is only 2 weeks away.  What is one thing you’re looking forward to?  What are you excited about?”

Ryan’s response: “I’m happy that mom’s getting me a restricted hall pass and that since I’m not in 6th grade any more, I won’t be as big of a target as the new kids coming in.”

Social worker: “Okay.  So now, tell me one thing that you’re worried about.  What are you stressed about going into this school year?”

Tick tock….tick tock…

Ryan: “Nothing.”

MUSIC TO MY EARS!!!!  I was so afraid getting him to go back and face the one place that is of constant bullying and little response to those hurting him would make this year that much more difficult to getting him back into the swing of things.  Nope!  Not at all.  So, the long talks, the advice, the encouragement and the karate have all paid off.  Ryan is now aware of his physical capabilities and has no fear in defending himself.  He has all the confidence in the world and that brings tears to my eyes.  I am so proud of this little boy.  I told him today, that if nothing else, I am beyond proud of him because although he suffers from moderate to severe anxiety, he looks it in the eye and refuses to back down.  I am so proud of his mental strength.  No child in that school has the capabilities of breaking this kid.  He left 6th grade on the verge of a mental breakdown, and now, after an entire summer devoted to building up his self esteem and confidence, he is a freaking brick house, both mentally and physically.  A sincere thanks to the man in assisting me with this…  We love you Bill.  Thank you so much for everything you’ve done to help me, and to help Ryan.  God brought you to us at the perfect time.  Never have I been more grateful for another’s presence in my life as I am right now.  Thank you for being the man my son needs to look up to, to admire and to model himself after.  I can’t thank you enough.  I realize this isn’t what you signed up for, but the fact that you took on the role?  Leaves me absolutely speechless. 

This year will no doubt be challenging, but once again, we’ll get through it, and in the end, Ryan will be a better person when all is said and done.  I love that I can go to bed tonight so very grateful for the countless blessings I have.  I love it when all is right in our world.  When we’re all in sync, our hearts are happy and light.  Life is good, and I wish you all the same.

~Kate…one extremely grateful Kate.

Only 1 post today…

…as I have LOTS to do.  I just wanted to take a moment to thank you all.  When I first started blogging, it was to grow an audience for the things I like to write about.  I would get so excited every time someone new liked my page.  I would watch the numbers grow, and call my parents just to say “I’m doing it!”.  This is no longer the case.  I write because it’s what I like to do.  I write because it’s therapeutic.  My most personal posts are in a notebook that no one has access to.  I’d love to post them here, but as you’re all well aware by now, I’ve got trolls following me and my personal life is none of their business.  I’m not going to give them anything to talk about.  So I keep it all light-hearted and positive.  Sure they still send me nasty hate mail, but it makes me smile.  I’m obviously on their minds.  I’m flattered, really.  But you’re still not getting anything personal about me.  So, continue to troll, hack into my boyfriends computer (because you aren’t getting into mine) and live a miserable life.  I just hope I can witness the day when you all look in the mirror and realize its not me you hate, but yourselves.  Your bad choices, your unhappy lives.  None of that is MY fault.  But unless or until you evolve, you’re going to continue looking like idiots casting blame instead of taking accountability.

 

So, to all of my REAL followers…  If I don’t get another follower for the rest of my time on WP, that’s totally fine by me.  This isn’t a popularity contest, and I like what I write.  Shouldn’t that be all that matters?  However, those of you who have taken the time to private message me; those of you leaving nothing but kind words and inspiring feedback; those of you who make me feel good…  I value each and every one of you.  I’m so grateful our paths have crossed.  It has taken me a long time to get where I am (evolutionary speaking) and you help keep me here.  That doesn’t go un-noticed by me.  I promise you that.  So, just a special thanks to all of you who continue to support me, through hard times as well as happy.  Through difficult prompts and those days when I feel my writing just isn’t good enough.  Thank you all so very much.  I’ve given some serious thought to starting an entirely new, anonymous account, where I can bare it all without any repercussions, but that’s miles away.  I’m not 100% convinced I won’t be found, as my ex has gone as low as to use a google image locator to find this blog.  So, when I say anonymous, I mean TOTALLY anonymous.  It sucks that I still have to live my life knowing these creatures are following my every post, BUT, this too shall pass.  If it makes them feel better to leave me nasty messages, hey… I’m still the good one, allowing them to get it off their chest, right?  Little do they know the comments go right into the trash and are no longer even read. I just don’t have the time to spend on such negativity. 

So, you all keep being who you are.  You’re a wonderful bunch I wish I had met years ago!  And they can continue to live their pathetic, miserable lives, hating, but thinking about me nonetheless.  If I am on their mind I have a certain power over them.  I like that.  Thank you all!!  I hope you all have a great day!!  Now, I’ve got to get to baking, and ready myself for tomorrows karate BBQ.  Actually looking forward to hearing my son belly laugh and have fun with his friends.

PLH4

~Kate…a person people LOVE to HATE, Kate.

 

An eventful day…

So, what started out as a day devoted to writing turned into anything BUT.  I had an early morning visitor who needed to vent, and an afternoon visitor also needing to vent, and now Bill’s home from work, so my time to write is over.  I was able to squeeze in some time to write between visitors, but it feels good to know that friends come to me for advice, and that I can help in a dilemma. I think I’m going to have to start charging though…  Then I hear that an old friend is having a tough time, so I shot her a text and hopefully have a lunch date in my near future, so we can catch up.  Maybe all she needs is someone to talk to.  Let’s hope…  I love helping others, strangers and friends alike.  Plus, it’s a legitimate excuse as to why I got no writing done.  🙂  Writer’s block?  Nahhhhh.  I just spent the day helping  some loved ones.  I can go to bed, once again, with a light heart, a clear conscience, and a smile on my face.  Life is good…  And smiles are free.  I will gladly give them away!  And knowing I am capable of making someone who’s feeling blue to feel happy again makes me feel even better.  Happiness is a choice, AND it’s contagious!! 

Hope you all have a wonderful evening!!

PLH5

~Kate…and extremely happy Kate.